So I used to write poems. Not so much anymore. But after reading Ash's and Morg's...I figured I should start again. Here goes.

You left me drowning.
All of you.
But I figured out how to swim.
With help from unexpected places.
From unexpected people.
And now I can begin again.

This time, it's different.
It's strange,
But good.
I'm afraid of drowning again.
Of losing the old.
But I'm more afraid of
Not finding the new,
Of regretting what
Could
Should
Would
Be.

So I'm jumping in again,
Head first.
I'm hoping, wishing, waiting,
Praying
That you won't let me drown too.
That you'll be there
If I fall
Stumble.
Not if, but when.

So I went to a good friend's mission farewell on Sunday. It was incredibly sad. I've been to farewells, but this time it hit me that the guys that I spend most of my time with, are going to be gone in a year. I'm not sure what I'm going to do without them. It's really scary knowing that things are going to change after this year, they already have changed I guess, but they're going to change even more. But it's ok. Because this year has already been spectacular, and it's going to get even better. Because we're going to become the power couple ;) Hahaha anyways.

Life is good.

Smile.

:)

So last night was the Viewmont Davis game. And it was spectacular. I worked and then when I got done, I went to the game, got the best hug of my life, spent time with my friends screaming and cheering for our team, got to see our team win, then spend even more time with friends who I love, and some other people who showed up. All in all, it was a spectacular night.

The thing is, I realized that the score of the football game was also kind of how my life is going. I feel like ever since things changed this summer, I'm soaring. And other people (cough cough) aren't. Maybe because they're stubborn and mad, maybe because they can't grow up and forgive. Either way, my friends and I...we've got lots of points. And you have nothing. Zero.

Wanna know how I'm feeling today?

So many nights trying to hide it
But now I stay awake just pleading for more
To think this heart was divided
I'm losing sleep cause I can't ignore...

Feeling your touch all around
Peacefully hearing the sound
Of silence around us, so glad we found us this way

Find me, here in your arms
Now I'm wondering where you've always been
Blindly, I came to you
Knowing you'd breathe new life from within

Can't get enough of you

I want to be where you are
In times of need I just want you to stay
I leave a note on your car
When I can't find the right words to say

Hearing your voice all around
The last place we're going is down
I'll blindly follow knowing you're leading the way

Find me, here in your arms
Now I'm wondering where you've always been
Blindly, I came to you
Knowing you'd breathe new life from within

With you in time
There's nothing else
My life stands still
You are the will that makes me strong
Make me strong
If ever alone in this world I know I'll always...

Find me, here in your arms
Now I'm wondering where you've always been
Blindly, I came to you
Knowing you'd breathe new life from within
You sleep, here in my arms
Where the world just shuts down for awhile
Blindly, you came to me
Finding peace and belief in this smile
Find some peace and belief in this smile

Can't get enough of you

So today was auditions for musical. Whatever. They were great. Everyone in the class is mondo talented. And everyone did really really well. We're already bonding and learning how to just have fun with each other. Don't get me wrong, it was nerve wracking. And terrifying. And thrilling. And horrid. All at the same time. But I'm finally realizing that this is us, this year. And that it's going to be great. I'm not sure how I feel about my audition, to be honest I was more excited and worried about other people than myself. It was fabulous :)

Life is wonderful. Yes, school is a slight downer on my life every day, but I'm getting past that. Yesterday we went to Arby's with our close friends and had a blast, almost got locked in Christian's van, and gave the workers the greatest names when they had our food ready. DTV is going to be crazy and stressful this year, but I've never been more excited.

ALSO. Musical auditions are TOMORROW. Stress much? Yes. I had to write an essay on traditions in my family, and it made me realize how important my family is to me. I have no idea where I would be without them. We aren't perfect, we aren't even close. But that's ok. And for the first time I think I'm finally figuring out how much our crazy fighting ways are perfect for me. My mom helped me go over the songs and I think I'm as ready as I can be. The rest is up to fate.

Fate has been very very kind to me lately. Having a crush on someone who might possibly like you back is absolutely thrilling. So is the idea that something that you never thought would happen, is happening. It's amazing. You should try it sometime:)

It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be...it was actually quite good. Seminary was really fun and I like my class and my teacher, MultiMedia will be a breeze, Art History is fun and fascinating, and English has some of my best friends and it's one of my favorite subjects. It's going to be a fantastic year. After school we went to Orange Leaf and had a "I survived the first day of school," party. It was grand.