This weekend has been crazy busy! And also not busy at the same time now that I think about it!

I got homework done, did laundry, spent some quality time with my amazing friends, and and got to spend some time at the temple and a Relief Society conference, plus having my awesome roomies teach a great lesson today!

I'm sorry if my melodramatic stories irritate you, if they do please stop reading now!

There have been too many thoughts bouncing around in my head and I need to get rid of them. So here we go.

I hear the door click behind me and I briskly walk down the stairs. The bottom stair that's only really half of a stair doesn't bother me anymore. It doesn't  bother me like it did the first time I walked into my new home.

The car is parked exactly where it was that first night, when we sat and talked for hours. You told stories and I laughed. That was before everything got confusing, before it was too hard and complicated.

It's strange to think that three months ago, the set of stairs leading up to you wasn't well-worn. I didn't take the stairs two at a time to see you then. And now I do, every day.

The strangest part of it all is you. It's been too long, but for some reason it's still ok. Still the most of everything.

When I walk to work, I walk past the past. I can see her watching out the window for him to appear. She'll see him, and then run back to her room or to the couch, trying to act nonchalant about his coming, but in reality she can't breathe. She still can't. Can't believe you are still perfect.

There are late night talks. But they are serious now. The future is present. And that is terrifying.

Ok well I am horrible at blogging! But lots of good things have been going on lately. I have been going to school like CRAZY and working hard, but also playing hard when I have time

So here's a small update!

Today is this amazing guy's birthday! He's 22. Yeah, I know he acts like a 6 year old, but he's 22! Happy birthday to one of the funniest, sweetest, and nicest people I know. I'm lucky to have a best friend like Drew!

This weekend we've gone to Classic Skating and Denny's with friends, spent the day shopping, eating all you can eat sushi, getting our favorite desserts at our favorite Mexican spot, and then watching Animal Odd Couples on Netflix. I also got to spend some time with my family at the MOA and going to dinner!

So basically it was an amazing weekend! And we still get tomorrow to play! How exciting:)

Do it.

Also, click on all the social media icons to your right, and follow/friend/like me.

Trust me, you'll be glad you did!

Dear Future Self (approximately one year in the future to be exact):

January 9, 2013.

It was one year ago today that I said goodbye to my best friend. There aren't words to explain that day, and most of me doesn't want to relive it.

As hard as this past year has been, it has been good. So very good. I have spent the past year learning, laughing, crying, dating, playing, working, exploring, missing, supporting, helping, and mostly growing. I know more about myself know than I did a year ago. And I think it's safe to say that Elder Low does too. I can't say what this next year will bring, but I do know that there's a boy in Japan who means the world to me, and that he's doing so many good things there.



People ask me if I regret anything, and the answer is no. Every choice has lead me here, and I'm happy and so is he. People ask me if I would do things differently. I think there are some things I wish were different, but nothing really that I have control over.

Everything happens for a reason. I tell myself that every single day. And I have already found a million reasons why this trial has been a blessing. Not seeing or even really talking to your best friend for 2 years is hard. But in the past year I think I've grasped a little more the good things that come.

People are going to form their own opinions, and I can't do anything about that. I know that I'm happy, Randy is happy, and the past year has been good to both of us. I'm sure this next year will be too.

I don't know what the future holds. I won't pretend that I do. I just know that I know Randy will continue to be an awesome missionary, and I'll continue living my life and loving it.

Maybe in a year we'll be back to doing Chili's runs, back to singing while you play the guitar, back to me asking you what outfit to wear, back to you taking out the trash while I cook you dinner, back to parking lot dancing, screaming our favorite songs in the car, frozen hot chocolates, and endless scheming, back to goodnight texts instead of letters, back to calls in between classes, back to long walks, back to shopping, seeing shows, eating dinner, and just enjoying time together. I sure hope so.



Happy 1 year down Elder Low. I couldn't be more proud of you!

Tonight I'm reflecting. You'll find out why tomorrow.

School is going so well! It's hard, but I really like it. I'm delving into broadcasting and it's everything I wanted it to be.

I have an interview to be an EFY Counselor tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Also, I find I'm not a very nice person when I don't get enough sleep. So I'll be working on that.

I also have time to read. It's blessed. I don't expect it to last, but for this moment, novels are my good night kiss.

Today, one of my best friends bore his testimony in Church about friendships. He talked about the friends he was seeing for the first time in years, the ones he left when coming to Utah, and the new friends he's made here. He talked about how they are like family to him. I, being the cry baby I am, started bawling.

I love my family and I miss them when I'm gone.

But it is so nice to have a Provo family here. People I can rely on to be there for me, to listen to me when I'm upset, to help me whenever I need it, to laugh with me and cry with me, everything. I love where I live and I am so lucky that I decided to move in here. I'm so lucky that I took the classes that I did, that I've made the friends that I have, and that those friends have become my family.

Hello there friends!

It's 2014. How weird is that?? I remember last New Year's perfectly. It doesn't feel like it was that long ago.

So to celebrate the new year, here is a moment from each month of 2013. These will be good, promise:)


January I said goodbye to my best friend. It was a really hard month, but getting those first few letters was the best!